V is an Evil Drink

I had my 2nd written paper this morning, 1st one was yesterday morning. It wasn't too hard, a few tricky questions that I didn't expect but only one or two where I had absolutely no idea and had to bullshit like crazy. Was a little bit panicky this morning, since I was really tired yesterday after my exam but couldn't sleep, so I drank 1.5 bottles of V to keep me awake so I could study. But even though I sat there for over 8 hours, it didn't really seem like effective study. It felt like I had this haze around my head. I was so out of it, the V didn't really seem to do much. Well that isn't true, it made me feel physically awake, but mentally I was running on empty. Never had the experience of having to study the same stuff that I just sat a test on, as both tests covered the same material. You would think that having known enough the day before, that I would still know enough the next day, but I find as soon as I step out of the exam room, the stuff I crammed in starts leaking out like a burst dam. And unfortunately I struggled to fill it back up, since it was so hard to remember stuff I read. Then it took me forever to fall asleep and had really light and turbulent sleep, partly because of the V and partly because of anxiety over how little effective study I did. I know I sound like an arrogant arse when I say this, but it was the first time I truly believed I might fail, and it scared me. Now I say this not because I'm some smart-arse who aces all his exams, but because they spend so much money training us that the faculty doesn't really want to fail us if they can help it. So while it is hard to do well, to pass is achievable as long as you turn up to class and start cramming a week or two before exams. Which I do manage to do, as do most people (less than half a dozen fail each semester out of about 280 students, and those that do usually pass their supplementary exams).

But yeah, exams were fine and now I don't know what to do with myself. I have my last exam on Tuesday but it is an oral exam, so I don't need to do much study for that, especially not till a day or two before. I did watch The 40 Year Old Virgin with Alan this afternoon, extremely vulgar but friggen hilarious...hahah...bet every guy wished they had friends like the virgin-guy did.